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hello sexy grasshoppers !! ok so this weekend i sent my first “wyd” text ever 🤭 ok so back in 2019 I had this little “fling” with this guy that we will name "Alpaca" and the timing as the worst! both of us were in our healing era, he was struggling with a weed addiction and hated his mom, dropped out of hs, and recently got out of a years long relationship so timing was terrible along the years he has reached out to apologize and try again, last time being this april, but as you guys know i was crushing over my now sadly taken man which now we would call "Giggles", and also idk i did not felt like trying again with him but we said we would stay as friends. then we talked again in august, so now current time, my bff and i always struggle to have plans and go out bc we dont have friends and we always say that one day we should randomly text someone and just hang out with them so thats what we did, she dared me to text Alpaca and so i did we ended up seeing him that weekend and this is how it went so when we were at his gate i started freaking the f out like full on anxiety attack, i was shaking, sweating and a weak stomach moment, many of u would be like "girl u are so dramatic frrrrrr smh" but guys 1: i have not seen him in 3 years 2: its not like we talk often 3: this is the wildest thing i've done in a while deadass. so at this moment i wanted to leave i told my friend that i was scared asf and then she was like girl im peeing my pants so seeing her nerveous too was very comforting so ty sm bff then we were driving around the houses bc we were not ready but then he called me saying that he saw us and then he got in the car. the first thing i did was give him his gift i got for him as a hi gift i got him a cereal box from the KAWS collection bc he loves KAWS he loved it wtv then we talked and guys it was actually really nice, he's so changed (for the better) he doesn't smoke much now, loves his mom, goes to college, he does music so he's coming out with an album and its actually good music, he also invited us to the listening party and thats so slay and he told me that i could hop on a trackkkk thats so slayyyyyyyy the only thing he failed to do was hold my feet which was actually pretty disapointing but besides that he lit ATE and SLAYED i had so much fun and he did text me after too, we have been talking ever since had fun & i would see him again is this my rory & jess moment??!!! ugh omg so far there's not a romantic interest from my part which i kinda wish there was like i might be crushing a bit but sadly nothing that affects my day... also remember guys that i dont do hookups, im not a member of the hookup culture so there's was not any physical interaction and there's not gonna be one unless i start to developing feelings again anyways im glad i went and had a good time and that i saw he's way better now i feel like i need to be more open to stuff like this so i made a list of random ppl to hang with -mariahcareyxoxo